My Chaotic Realm

Oh, my the times I had on Vacation. Friday I breakfasted @ IHOP w/Rebel, then ran some errands w/Jade. Saturday we went to Gruene, Texas and became tourists. Sunday was a movie in Austin at the new theater. Monday I caught up around the house, filing, art objects, laundry, etc. Tuesday Spirit took off the day & we travelled to Frederickburg to see some sights, eat some authentic German cuisine, visit the Pioneer Museum, etc. Weds I went to Bandera and spent day with my mom and some of her friends... very relaxing vacation, even if I didn't get to go to the coast htis year. Weather was not good for that type of vacation anyways! :-)

Well... I have pondered this for a while now... and I have decided not to confront the ex-in-laws. You see, Rebel's patriarchal grandunits have decided that I am no longer welcome at family functions. Good!! I don't enjoy going to the "Once Annual Dinner" anyways. I go because Rebel does not want to go alone, and I take a friend every year because I don't want to sit alone whilst Rebel mixes and mingles with kinfolk I really have no interest in. But this issue is really twofold:: 1) they judged me , and 2) they made Rebel the emissary instead of having the decency to tell me themselves that I was "persona non grata ". What bothers me most is that I raised my child to do exactly the opposite of what they have done... passed judgment. I want Rebel to accept people as they are and expect the same acceptance from them, regardless of the issue. I also taught to never shame another. The love Rebel has for them kept mum anything that might have been said ...

my vacation time is just around the corner..I can smell it! Tomorrow is my last day at work this week.... Friday I will be helping Rebel scout some new digs. Sat & Sun gonna range around a bit. Mon, well...that is Memorial Day... probably catch up on stuff around the house, filing, art swaps, etc. Tuesday is my birthday... thinking of maybe heading on over to Enchanted Rock if the weather is NICE. Not climbing it in the rain!! Weds I will be heading to Bandera to see Mom and hang out, maybe go to lunch with her & some friends... Then back to work Thurs...just in time for PAYDAY!! LOL. Agathos is on a hunger strike it seems.. he did not eat on the 10th and now he is about to shed so he did not eat last night either. Daimon is really regular about his meals... sigh

I do a random oracle type pull every morning... today's card tells me "I look for the meaning of life within myself." The back of the card says "If you want to find a deeper meaning in your life, you can't find it in the opinions or the beliefs that have been handed to you. You have to go to that place within yourself." Hmmm... Reminds me of the Charge of the Goddess , where it says "And you who seek to know Me, know that the seeking and yearning will avail you not, unless you know the Mystery: for if that which you seek, you find not within yourself, you will never find it without." Yesterday's Oracle was Vesta, the Roman goddess of hearth & home. In Greek times, she was called Hestia. She reminded me to clear out some space, light candles, make it warm & inviting for yourself. However, instead of doing that, went to visit Peace last night and her new house! She wont be moving in until August as there are some other things to take c...

Once upon a time, when I visited my relative, I found some social security checks languishing. Relative was not in good health and was unable to get checks to bank. Some had already expired they were so old. So I set up a direct deposit account with me as signer so I could grocery shop, pick up presciption medications, etc. Then, a couple of years later relative fell and was placed in a nursing home full time. At that point, a parental unit took over the checkbook since now responsible for all the nursing home bills, selling the house, etc. However, I remained a signer on the account as I visited weekly and delivered sundry items. September 2001 brought the Twin Towers ordeal and the death of relative. When I asked about closing the bank account I was told bank would need death certificate to close it out and it would "All be taken care of". Now, I find out that it was NOT "taken care of" ... and that an monthly annuity stipend found its way into the account for ...

Well, 1 week down, a few more to go until my birthday arrives! Will be taking 2 vacation days, plus holiday pay and the weekend so a whopping 5 days off!! May is (so far) quite a bit slower than April was. I NEVER want to double up on coursework ever again. Not int he same month, PLEASE. And have stated such to the powers that be that they need to coordinate things a little better for those of us taking both the WTI course AND the WOTY. Kim's WOTY is only a year-long course, whereas the Women's Thealogical Institute is on ongoing course of study. Good news is, I don't think any of them will overlap in the remaining months of 2007. Wheww!! Only about half the items on May's calendar as there were on April's, mostly due to exhaustion (lol) and the fact that neither course is holding an intensive study in May. And we'll be curtailing some of our adventures for financial consideration:: the change in Spirit's work facility and the additional member of our...

Well, I have made it through the whirlwind that was April... ending in Beltane. Then May kicked off with it's (first of two) Full Moon. Ruth was in town signing her book & signing last night. That was great, really...wow... she has such an awesome presence. Tallied out the last few weeks... in the last 14 days we've been engaged in some form of ritual work a grand total of 9 of them, and planning for group rituals another one of those days, then attended an event for one of our own for another of those days. So 3 days were mundane...LOL... if you call finally giving my 1986 Celica a break. I figure, after 26 years and 337,000 miles, she deserves a break here & there. So say hello to my new vehicle!! Let's see...for the other 2 of those 3 days... I was sick one of them, home & directly to bed. Umm... last one? Oh, yes...went to visit my Energy friend, who is recovering from back surgery. Life is full...as it should be! So, slowing down a bit now... work...