My Chaotic Realm

Well, my co-worker and I were talking on Monday about about our weekends and the people in them, and about how particular themes seem to "pop up" over and over. I mentioned how a particular friend brings up themes for me to delve into. For instance, Sunday evening was 'Control' and inspired the opening chapter of a piece I have titled "Short Story Long." Tuesday was ' Games.' Sadly, I do not think my phone-flinging friend reads my blog, so I don't think there is an awarness of the inspiration I am given as a benefit of our friendship. After hanging up last night - whilst in HEB, no less - a kind soul took pity on my cell phone as I looked at it with a mixture of (I am sure) confusion, anger, awe and utter disbelief & removed it from my possession, placing it on top of my bag of cat chow. Must have had that look on my face again.... Last time I just hurled it across the room. Poor SpiritWalker had to 1) duck, then 2) reinstall the battery...

Well, I picked up a sticker that said "If money were no object, what would you be doing with your life today?" When I mentioned it to someone I count as important, they said "Exactly what I am doing right now." I concurred that I, too, like my life today. If I were to win the lottery, I would not quit my job. I would like to take off work at 2pm, just to give myself a few more hours a day to do some more of the things I like, tho :-). Read, carouse bookstores. Take an art class. Meet friends for an early dinner or coffee. Open mike night at a local poetry reading. I would like to write more, maybe even for someone else to read? Not really sure about that yet. So much of myself comes through in what I write. Anyway, back to the original intent here (I DO tend to meander) ... this person thinks that I am unhappy...that I am presenting a facade of happiness but that underneath I am unhappy and possibly even scared? Well, I took that home and chewed on it for a bit. And...