My Chaotic Realm

hmmm...need to come up with a personal ritual to share with the Wheel of the Year group this weekend, sometime Saturday, I do believe. We are working on the Girl-Child/Maiden aspects as it is Beltane soon... am thinking of honoring my connection to water.... in all its forms. Even as a child, I always found my own private little place near the water where I could go and relax, be, think, enjoy, watch the world go by.... :-) Now just to figure out how to go about the actual honoring... that is the hard part!! Stay tuned!

Well, here it is, Tuesday, and I've not yet set down in words (keystrokes?) the weekend past. My, it was FULL. :-) Full of goddess women, goddess energy, goddess altars, discussions, feedback, all sorts of wondrous things. Saturday's evening circle was centered around reclaiming our "bitch" personas. When a man is aggressive or assertive or the like, he is "manly"...when a woman behaves similarly, she is called names. Why is that ? Aask yourself, see what you come up with. You might be surprised. Anyways...back on topic... the Orisha we invited in was Oya , and we invited the Goddesses Kali , Medusa , Pele & Lilith . Earlier in the day, I presented an altar to Isis as I am attuned to her. Funny, did a random card pick on a website earlier today & got the Isis card. :-) After lunch, we got to hear the actual non-patriarchal stories, poetry, etc on several of the Goddesses, and personal stories relating to them as well...just an AWESOME...

Well, today is Thursday...Jade will be in town signing one of her books @ Bookwoman!! And then the WTI weekend Fri-Sun at PineCrone in Bastrop. This will be my 2nd event of this type, but the 1st one at PineCrone, so I am really excited. For this weekend, I will be studying the Goddess in her many forms as well as making a presentation on the Goddess Isis. Spirit is presenting Artemis. Good thing I am taking off at noon on Friday or there would be a lot of things left undone. Jade's deal is tonight @ 7pm in Central Austin, so will be close to 10pm before we get home, then Friday we have to be in Bastrop by 5pm... EEEEEK!!! Also want to get my Alabama Gal some stuff @ Hancock Fabrics as they are having a "going out of business" sale. Lots of cool stuff in there, I tell ya! Also need to make a casserole, Spirit is making a cake...all sorts of things need to happen. Plus caring for the 14 babies whilst we run in and out over the weekend.

Well, awake @ 4:30am yesterday, then not much really in the manner of sleep all night last night, just tossed and turned on really sore shoulders. If I lay on my side, eventually the circulation gets cut off from shoulders down, then I wake up in excrutiating pain and roll onto my back... where I cannot fall back asleep. Now that I am upright, my shoulders just ache. But I do have feeling in hands all the way down to fingertips, so that is a bonus. Blood pressure is back up, tho not as high as I would like... 98/51, pulse 71. More water... more water... feel like a camel!! Feeding night for the pythons... that is always fun... Daimon is still growing so fast I can't tell when one shed stops and another one starts. So, the plan is still to take off Friday the 13th in celebration, as well as to get some things done that I am in need of... getting my driver's license renewed (have to do in person as they want to SEE me at least once every 12 years...wtf?)? Amending tax returns. W...

well, went home dizzy & wobbly feeling... took my blood pressure and it was 79 over 59, pulse 62. It is a bit better today, a whopping 96 over 58 and a pulse of 60...and I have a Zumba class at Curves today. Hmmmm. So, we'll see how that goes... drinking lots of water (one of the causes of hypotension). Spirit ran into my Celica this morning.... good news is, Pete helped me locate a taillight first thing so it will be headed this way from New York soon.. found it here! And, while I am updating things, we are still numbering four @ work, and coming along nicely with the training. I will be taking Friday the 13th off as a personal day, get caught up on some art items I am a wee bit lagging on. The last half of April will be insane with all our activities, so now or never! I work the 14th, then we are trying for Bandera the 15th...that may wait a couple of weeks, not sure? And Rebel celebrated 14 months w/SO @ a dinner last night... such a sweet soul! And tonight is perso...

Well, my printer has been dead all week... and I am the networking printer.... comp geek was called out Monday morning but not yet here. Could invoice but then need to print them & mail out. Could type up work orders but need to print them out afterwards. Could print up disconnect notices but THOSE have to print. Sigh Walaa...he is here! more later!

Well...back from my doc...she was okay with most everything. Gained 6 pounds :-( from when I was last there 12 weeks ago. But that beats the 1-2 # I WAS gaining every week. Also gave her the "good news", that I'd joined Curves 4 weeks ago. The "bad news", I told her, was that I had not lost ANY weight-- I weighed exactly the same today as I did when I started there four weeks ago. She said that was not really bad news as no one loses weight in the 1st month of working because they are converting fat to muscle, which weighs more. So...I'll keep it up. She says changes in body composition are more telling than the scale. I do the "weigh & measure" thing @ Curves the 6th of every month so I will see what happens then. After a little more discussion, we tweeked one medication and did three more thyroid blood tests ... thinks my gland may be enlarged. Did you know your thyroid gland is located in your neck? I didn't until she started poking ...