January — A Monthly Witness to Myself

 This is a monthly witness, not a summary.  At the end of each month, I pause to notice — not to evaluate or explain — what was lived, what was tended, and what is still unfolding.

What I Tried

I tried moving at the pace my body set, not the pace my fear suggested. I practiced noticing early signs of stress and responding sooner instead of pushing through. I experimented with smaller days: fewer expectations, clearer edges, more rest.

What I’m Keeping / What I’m Releasing

• Keeping: Slow mornings and checking in with my body before committing my energy.

• Releasing: The belief that rest needs to be justified or earned.

A Physical Project

I tended one small area of my home that had grown heavy with neglect and winter pause. I cleared it slowly, touching each object with intention. The result wasn’t perfection, but space — a place ready to be lived in again.

A Monthly Ritual

I marked the Full Wolf Moon with quiet presence rather than performance. I spent time noticing what felt scarce, what felt protective, and what needed tending. I set no intentions — only attention — and let that be enough.

What Grounded Me

Quiet mornings with coffee and journaling. Sitting in my meditation room with low light and stillness. Small, ordinary acts of care: feeding animals, tidying one surface, walking the dog.

An Honest Note from the Middle

Not everything feels resolved. My body is still teaching me where the limits are. I am learning how to return without rushing, and that lesson is ongoing.

A Closing Question or Blessing

What if I let February meet me where I actually am — not where I think I should be?